Chubby Toes

Merry Christmas!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:07:00 +0000

Hope you all had a great Christmas with family and friends! Mine was very relaxing. Yeah! Didn't mean I didn't eat things I shouldn't, but you know I am not into deprivation! I am living not dieting!

My surgery to clean out my knee is next Tuesday. I weigh in that morning, if I remember before I have to be there. Please pray for my surgery to help so that I can be more active. I really am looking forward to being able to exercise and have a lot less pain. I have a lot of people praying for me. I think I am really ready to do this.

I have lost 10 pounds now and that is a good start so now my next goal is another 20 pounds. Then I am hoping to maintain it for a week or two and start being careful again til I lose another 20, and so on and so on! I don't want to be crazy about this, just 20 pound segments, beings I usually come to a screeching halt at 30 pounds. Maybe I can trick my body and not make it think that it is starving this way!

Hope you all have a fun and safe New Year!

Busy Busy Busy!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 04:59:00 +0000

Wow it has been crazy lately. I'm trying to finish Christmas gifts, attending Open Houses, potlucks, Girl's Night Out Christmas Parties, and family Christmas Parties...Eeek!

We found out my surgery on my knee, (the one they can't guarantee will help) is going to cost us over $700. And it is due before surgery. The surgery is scheduled for 4 days after Christmas. Who has that kind of money right after Christmas? We are trying to decide whether to spend the money and hope it works, or bag the whole thing. My knee is not getting better by any means. How will I be able to lose any weight without being able to walk etc.?

I got on the scale this morning to make sure I had not gotten too crazy as I have not been journaling my food intake or making sure of much of anything except taking my vitamins and meds. I am down to 252. Whats up with that? Being less than good and losing? Well, atleast I have not gone crazy on portions. I find I am not wanting all that much food, just often! I have gotten pretty sick when I get busy and don't eat often enough. I truly am not dieting, that's for sure! I will be anxious to see what the scale says by Tuesday when I weigh in officially.

Hope you all have a great Christmas and enjoy celebrating the birthday of our Lord and Savior!

Yikes!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 06:39:00 +0000

Way too many holiday temptations right now! I'm surrounded!

First week summary

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 19:11:00 +0000

Ok, the first week went better than expected! I am not dieting...Yeah! And I lost 8 pounds!

I was aware of every bite and somehow didn't have any emotional eating. I did go to a Christmas party. I sampled what I wanted and what I wanted was more real food than sweets. I did try some of the sweets. The ones I didn't "love", I dumped in the trash-don't tell on me!

I drank all my water and of course took my vitamins. That was my two basic goals for this week. I didn't plan my menu ahead but I did eat at home 5 nights this week. Now for this coming week I am going to add...4-5 fruits and veggies a day, and try to get 7-8 hours of sleep every night. I don't think I am going to worry about planning meals so much until the first of the year as there are so much activities coming up and who knows what I will have to eat after my surgery too!

We have two get togethers on Sunday, both with lots of nummy food! One is an open house at our friends and one is a family Christmas Party. I am really hoping that I can be sensible and not totally pig out like I normally would. We'll see!

Vampires and Arguements!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 08:01:00 +0000

Gosh how time flies...I'd like to say it was cuz I was having fun, but actually it was all my daughter's fault. She loaned me her copy of "Twilight" to read. Now I need "New Moon" Geez...I have Christmas sewing to do, and tons of shopping. I can't spend all my time reading. But then it is Edward we are talking about...hmmmm!

But back to my getting healthy goals...I really am learning alot by tracking what I am eating and what I am not eating and when I eat and when I don't want to eat. Like last night when Hubby and I got in a fight, he took off for a bit to cool off and all I wanted to do was run over to Wendy's and have a cheeseburger and fries and I probably wouldn't have stopped myself from having a pop either and maybe even a frosty. I was able to restrain myself. I had been cooking green beans and ham hocks for hubby all day so I opted for some of those instead. I was not in the mood to fix him anything else so that was it for dinner. Wasn't the greatest for me and not very balanced but better than Wendy's.

Ooops!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 18:49:00 +0000

It's almost 11:00 am and I have not had breakfast. I really need to eat before I get on the computer!
Lost 5 pounds in fluid since yesterday! Woohoo! That should help my knee.

I am on the journey

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 08:39:00 +0000

Just getting ready to go to bed, but thought I better track my progress for today. I have become a night owl lately. Maybe I need to keep track of my sleep also as I know it does not help weight loss and can actually cause weight gain if you don't get enough sleep. I have problems sleeping anyway, both getting to sleep and then staying asleep.

I tracked all my food and calories today and was suprised where my total was after dinner. It is about at my ideal calories (according to what Prism set me at). Hmmm! I also noticed that I had to force 1/2 an orange down me this morning and was starving at lunch. Need to fix a better breakfast with protein and good carbs. And with my diabetes I should be having two to three snacks a day. I had a snack after dinner but nothing all day. A lot to be learned here!

I was able to drink all my water, and had some light cran-grape also (40 calories/8 oz.) All in all, it was a pretty good day. Sure got my exercise running up and down the stairs getting rid of all that water. My bathrooms are either upstairs or downstairs (none on the main floor). Good for my exercise but not so great on my knee.

Watched Biggest Loser tonight. Very inspiring! More than anything, I have learned by watching the show that I am worth it...I deserve to get healthy and lose the weight and quit hating myself. I need to forgive myself for getting this way and move on and get past it and quit punishing myself.

I have always known how hard it is to lose weight, but it is not nearly as hard as it is to forgive yourself and to examine your inner most heart and soul to find out the reasons behind the weight, and what keeps you here. It is reeally a journey and I feel like I am ready to peel back the layers and look inside now. I am beginning my journey. I hope you will be here to help support me along the way.

Project Me!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 18:35:00 +0000

I'm kinda an "all or nothing" type person when it comes to dieting. It's very hard for me to allow myself to slip up, and get right back on it. So, to that end, I am not going on another diet again as long as I live!

I have been on almost every "diet" known to man and still need to lose over 100 pounds. I have and still am contemplating weightloss surgery. Can't afford it at the moment so it is pretty much "off the table".

I have decided not to do another weightloss program. I know what I need to do to lose weight. I know how I need to eat and what I need to eat. I know the portion size and even the balance of protein to carbs etc. for my diabetes. So, why do I lose for about 30 pounds and then just stop? I don't stop the diet or program or whatever you want to call it, it quits me... don't think I can do that again!

I know that exercise plays a big part in that. With all my various ailments, I have never been very good at that end. I'm sure that that is why I have never succeeded in losing all that I want to. I have walked on my treadmill and started on my recumbandt bike as well the last time I really gave it a good effort. But I don't think I really had a good plan.

I am watching Biggest Loser this season. I could never do that kind of exercise atleast without Jillian yelling at me, or Bob pushing me to find the hidden "me" within! Being on the Biggest Loser Ranch you would have no choice in the matter. You would exercise when they said excercise or you would be headed home. I would have to be forced like that.

Right now, I have a blown out knee that is bone on bone. I have been in excruciating pain since the end of May. The pain has been increasing in severity. The doctor says I can not have surgery for knee replacement until I lose 80 pounds. Well, if you are overweight like I am, to the extent that I am, you know that 80 pounds may as well be 800! So here I sit, in my recliner, for the most part, in constant pain watching the world go by.
I am not telling you all this for your sympathy. Just filling in the background.

So what do we have? A big mess! I can't see starting another diet. From my viewpoint, that is just going to set me up for another failure. But I really feel the need to do something. If you have read some of the old posts on this site, you can see that all my medical issues would be greatly improved if not eliminated completely if I were able to lose the weight.

In order to do this I feel I really need to examine the reasons I became overweight to begin with and then to try to discover what is keeping me here, (emotionally). I feel like that is a big key to this. The rest is logistics.

I have always started a diet or program with unwavering resolve to do this right this time...and this time I will do it...I will lose the weight that is holding me back. Well, I am 56 years old and I have not done it yet.

I realize that if I take in more calories than I expend, I will gain weight. Very simple then, to lose weight I have to either, take in less calories or expend more calories. Preferably a combination of both. If I take in too few calories, my body thinks its starving and will hold on to every bit of stored fat it can to protect me. So guess that is not the answer. I need to make sure that I eat enough calories but not too much. Also I need to incorporate excercise to expend some calories.

Ok, so I am going to tackle this like a job project. It will be known as...Project Me.

Job Requirements:

to become healthy and fit

Brainstorming Ideas:

take in reasonable amount of calories
incorporate exercise
don't let the scales tell the story
drink lots of water
get enough fruits and vegetables
eat lean protein
eat whole grains
take daily vitamins
take additional vitamin D
take other meds as neccessary
monitor blood sugars
take measurements once a month
cook my own meals atleast 5 days a week
collect all my healthy recipes

Plan of Attack:

Start "Project Me" Dec. 1, 2009

Monthly

Weigh
Take measurements
Take stock in what went good and what didn't
Set goals for next month

Weekly

Cook dinner atleast 5 nights a week
Make weekly menu for next week
Plan for exercise or activity
Set weekly goals
Do weekly shopping
monitor blood sugars

Daily

Take vitamin & vitamin D
Drink 8/8oz glasses of water
Take other meds as needed
Journal
Take 30 minutes "me time"

Week One:

weigh
take measurements (first day of each month)
drink atleast 8 8oz glasses of water daily
take vitamins, vitamin D daily
take other meds when needed
start journal
monitor blood sugars daily
count calories and record any activities (for two weeks)

Well, there's the plan for now...I will add it to the side bar later so I can refer to it often. I will also add weight and measurements.

I am going to monitor my calorie intake and activity level for two weeks and take an average to figure out how many calories I am taking in to see how many I need to cut per day. You need to know where you are to know where you are going.

I am going to sit down and plan my menu and shopping list for this week. I am starting on Tuesday as it is the first day of the month. I intend to add to my program as I go along but for now these will be the things I am going to concentrate on. Baby steps!

I'm Back...

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:02:00 +0000

Wow...it has been a year and a half since I have posted! And sadly enough, I am fighting the same battle. Or not fighting it, as the case may be.
I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, trying to figure out how I got in this situation, or more to the point...what keeps me here? What made me hate myself so much that I just didn't care what happened to me? Or what I felt like, or looked like for that matter!
Well, I have decided that no matter how much you think about it, it just doesn't change it. You have to do something! A lot of things actually. I didn't get this way be thinking about it, nor did I get this way by just doing one thing. I did a lot of things to attain this level of couch potato. The question is...Am I really ready to do something about it?

Not gonna be weighing in for awhile...

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 26 May 2008 08:15:00 +0000

Went to the doctor on Friday cuz it felt like my cough was getting worse and my chest was tightening up and not as loose as it had been. I figured it was just asthma, but just in case it was working on a good case of bronchitis as well, figured I better go in. (I have chronic bronchitis, and the last couple of times my asthma has been flared up also) By the time I got back to my car I was ready for anti-depressants and strong ones. I don't know why it affected me like it did, but I was mad at my doc, depressed, feeling hopeless, and just felt like dissolving into a puddle of tears.
He put me on strong anti biotics and prednisone again! For one thing, I am not supposed to have prednisone or any steroids as it flares up my psuedotumor cerebri. I do not want to have a brain shunt, much less the brain surgery to put it in! It took me so long to get my body working again after the last round of steroids. I had one of the medpacks of prednisone for five days and then a month of inhaled steroids. It got where I couldn't breathe from so much fluids. I was really short of breath. I really thought I was going to have a heart attack. My Dad died of complications from a stroke that had left him bedridden for a number of years, following heart bypass surgery for the second heart attack and second bypass. Needless to say I was a little worried.
A bunch of us at work went on the same healthy eating program and I had been doing well, having lost 16 pounds and most of the fluid and really starting to feel better when I got sick again. Now I know I will be right back where I started again.
The only thing that was not doing better was my blood sugar levels. I had been keeping track for the last month to show the doctor the next time I went in. I need to try some other meds. He wouldn't even talk to me about it as the prednisone will send them up much higher anyway. Of course this really thrills me too. I need to get new glasses, but can't even have the exam while my blood sugars are up. I did this once before I was monitoring my blood and when I got my glasses my blood was normal again and couldn't see clearly out of the glasses and had to send them back to be remade. My current glasses are so bad now, and scratched too!
It's really not going to do me any good to be on a diet right now as I have so much working against me. So I will let you know when I am going to start over again! Bring on the prozac!

I know it is only Sunday!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 19 May 2008 04:48:00 +0000

It is Sunday and not Monday, but I will be too busy in the morning to post, so thought I would do it now! I weighed this morning. I was very surprised that I had lost another 3 pounds. I have not been eating properly for the last six days as I have been feeling so much like crap! So pretty much I have eaten what sounded good to me, no matter what it was. A strange thing has happened while I have been on this program. I have been satisfied with less. That is a very big deal for me! I usually can put away quite a bit of food. In the past couple weeks, I have wanted less. It must be from eating smaller meals, but knowing that I can have a snack in a couple hours. Maybe it is changing my metabolism. That would be the most awesome thing to ever happen to me! Coolio, I tell ya!

Sorry So Silent!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Fri, 16 May 2008 18:24:00 +0000

I am sick, sick as a dog, in fact! Yesterday, I could care less what I ate...didn't care how many calories, how many carbs, much less how many powerfoods! If it felt good I ate it. I slept thru most of the day. And here it is 11:30 and I am just getting up and having breakfast/snack/lunch. Ya know what really sucks? It is sposed to be 88 today...it is gorgeous out there. It was still snowing a little over two weeks ago. I have been waiting for this day to get some things done in my yard. And here I am, can't even breathe, and all the energy of a brand new mommy after two weeks with a newborn and no sleep!

Hi, it's me again!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 12 May 2008 14:05:00 +0000

It's Monday, the day that I weigh in and, of course, I had a big Mother's Day dinner last night, after eight at night! My daughter and oldest son took me to the casino yesterday. I won a rather nice jackpot, and we were all hungry so it was the Mother's Day buffet for us! I found it all very curious tho. I filled my plate as usual. took a bite of the fish and ate the breaded shrimp (I know, I'm bad!) I sent almost the whole plate back. Then I had seen some pasta salad that looked good so I got a little of each. Took a bite and that was enough. You are allowed one cheat meal a week, so I figured this was it. But I couldn't seem to eat much of any of it, even the little tiny slice of cheesecake (and I love cheesecake), I still only ate a couple bites. What is happening to me? I am not complaining, just perplexed!

Last week I did not record my weight loss, because there wasn't any. I had lost 3 pounds during the week but by Monday it had found its way back to me! Hate it when that happens! This week, I lost it again and lost another pound with it. Pray it doesn't find its way back home! So in 3 weeks I have lost 13 pounds. That's a good start and not losing it as fast, which I think is good. And I don't feel deprived! Have a good week!

I'm amazed!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Fri, 02 May 2008 17:31:00 +0000

Well, fluid or no fluid, I am still amazed at the changes I am seeing in me since I started on the AB's diet a week ago Monday. My clothes are actually loose...in less than two weeks! My body is changing shape, and I have lost 12 pounds.
I am almost scared to say it for fear it will run away, but I actually had a burst of energy this morning. Ouuuuu! I have not had that for a long time.
I am not feeling at all deprived on this either. There are lots of good foods to eat and really nothing is forbidden. It is about teaching you what to eat all the time, what to eat occasionally, and what to eat rarely. It's a life change for sure with no counting, no measuring. How many people can keep that up for their whole life? Too much prep always killed me on any of the other programs I have been on. You do need to cook and prepare meals etc. but you don't have to worry about how many calories, fat grams, or points every little morsel is.
Happy Friday!

(Drum Roll Please)

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 14:27:00 +0000

Well, last time I tried the whole weight loss thing, I went on Prism (very strict) for 6 weeks and lost 20 pounds. Then life got crazy, I got stressed, and I gained back the 20 I lost! Big Suprise! Then in January I got real sick and had to have steroids for a couple months to pull out of it. This triggered my pseudo tumor and on came the excess fluid...felt like I was drowning. I have had lots of trouble getting it to pack up and go find a nice lake or something to live in. But even though I am still a bit bloated from the steroids, there is a slight change in my abdomen. So I will take my 9 pound loss and run with it.

Confused!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 04:56:00 +0000

My body is all whacked out right now! I am feeding it good food and I think it has thrown it into a tailspin! My blood sugars were high (for me anyway) and since Monday they are higher! I lose a few pounds of fluid and then back it comes. I think I really confused it! Now it has confused me. It's all good, I think!

Weight loss/water loss?

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:29:00 +0000

I've lost 8 pounds! Since Monday! Don't get excited...it's just fluid!
I have really been struggling with my pseudo tumor since I had to have steroids back in January to get rid of the "crud" and to help my asthma. And then they put me on a steroid inhaler for 2 months also. Steroids are a big no no with pseudo tumor cerebri (PTC) But what do you do? Guess I thought this would be the lesser of the two evils since I could not breathe at all then. So four months later I am still trying to get rid of the fluid. I will lose 15 pounds in two days and then it starts to collect again. As it is right now...my spine has so much fluid I can hardly turn my head at all. My neck is really out and I need an ajustment or 10, but all it would do at this point is make the muscles all swell up and be worse. So my prayer is that the fluid is on it's way out (now that I am back on diabetes meds too.)
The program (Abs) is pretty easy to stick with but there is a lot of prep. If I had been feeling better I would make up a large portion of brown rice for the week to put veggies and beans in etc. for on & off during the week. All kinds of things you can do to save time, am I doing it? NO, I am fighting off the crud going thru our office. I have been exhausted! Getting back on all my meds will make me a much happier person! :)

Holy Cow!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 15:07:00 +0000

I just ate my first meal with "good food" on this Ab's program...I am stuffed! Note to self: fix lunch and snacks prior to eating breakfast! I don't even want to think about food right now and I need to fix everything else for the day!
I am not posting my weight for today until next week or the week after as I know it is all wacky with fluid from my pseudo tumor cerebri right now. Like 11 pounds or more! It usually takes a couple weeks to get it back under control. But rest assured, I did weigh and did all my measurements for a reference point. Talk about a depressing Monday morning!
I really am not depressed about it tho! I am weighing more than I have in many years and have lots of weight related issues. I should be under the covers crying and refusing to come out! That doesn't work either. I am ready to work on this again. I am ready to make myself feel better! But right now, I gotta run as fast as my fat little legs will carry me to get all this done before I need to be at work so bye....

Well, I'm going for it!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 02:09:00 +0000

I have not finished the book. I have not planned all my meals for the next couple days. I do not understand all the ins and outs of this program yet. I don't know how to work my new "Magic Bullet". In fact I have not even taken it out of the box yet.
But... I am going for it anyway! Tomorrow morning at 7:00 am I am starting on the Ab's diet. Yep, me, that's what I said. Tonight is my last Mountain Dew. Tomorrow I will be eating good food! And smoothies! Woo hoo!
Think I better start getting up a bit earlier so that I can cook breakfast and make lunch and 2 snacks! Whew, what a lot of work! My poor frig is so stuffed full of healthy junk, I can hear it moaning all the way over here!
I will attempt to journal good and bad. Wish me luck!

Have a Question...

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 16:02:00 +0000

First...hi, no I am not dead, and I have missed you all! Just have been very stressed and overwhelmed, and needed to drop out of life for awhile!
Now having said that...I am ready to slowly start dipping my toe in the ocean again!
I do have a question for you all! That's assuming there is still ANYONE still out there! Has anyone tried the Ab's Diet for women? I know a few people on it and they're doing well, but haven't really talked with them (just their family) I have read quite a bit about it and yesterday bought the book.
Guess I just need the reassurance and input from my bloggin buddies. Help!

The things I like about it:

the foods are healthy good for you stuff
no forbidden foods (alternate choices given)
no counting calories unless you want to
you get a cheat meal once a week
sensible exercise program

Possible pitfalls:

have to cook or prepare all the time (ok, you caught me...I'm lazy!)
no counting calories (I can put away a lot of food when I want to)
sensible exercise program (right now I feel like I would die)

What do ya think?

I am not in this for the ab's. I would be shocked and totally spit less if I found out I even had ab's! I am more into this for the fact that health wise I feel like I am sliding down a very slippery slope...and although I am more than ready to go home to Jesus...I am not quite ready to leave my family just yet.

So I guess that means that I better do something about it. Right now it seems almost totally impossible to get to the point to be able to say that I even feel good again. It's pretty depressing actually.

At this point I KNOW I have to make some changes, mentally, emotionally, and physically. Boy, that sounds exhausting! Maybe I will go take a nap!

Days of Our Lives

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sat, 20 Oct 2007 17:48:00 +0000

Boy yesterday was one of those days! First I was woke up by one of the registered nurses that help monitor my diabetes and asthma. That turned out to be no big deal...I think she was new! She didn't do any probing or make any suggestions etc. Yeah, I got off the phone without feeling convicted etc. But the next phone call was not so easy!

I guess while I had been blissfully (is there such a word?) sleeping in on my day off, my sister had been trying to get ahold of me. She lives close to my mom and stops by in the morning to give her her pills. Yesterday she had a paper for her to sign and mom could not even write. Mom has arthritis in her fingers pretty bad, and it usually takes her awhile to sign her name. We are on her checkbook and usually write her checks. But she went to sign it and could not even hold the pen right. She didn't know how any more. She was recently diagnosed with Alzheimer's, so that in itself was not too suprising. But there was something about it that was nagging at my sister. She got into work and it was still bugging her so she showed it to some of the people in her office and then showed them her signature from a couple weeks ago. They convinced her to have it checked out. So she called Mom's doctors office and they told her to go to urgent care or the hospital. Hence the phone call that finally got me up.

I met them at urgent care and mom got a cat scan and vision test etc. as she was having trouble seeing as well. Her eyes were pretty equal at this point and the cat scan was ok now but they think she had a TIA or mini stroke. Whatever damage that was done was already done so she has to follow up with her doctor on next Friday.

We took Mom to lunch and then we went together to get her groceries while her and her puppy took a nap. After we got her all snuggled in for the night and the groceries put away we finally came back to my house.

We had a craft thing with the ladies from my church. It was a nice way to relax a little. The only problem was, everyone was supposed to bring finger foods. And oh did they, but the first 20 women brought desserts! Oh my. There really was not much that I could have. So I threw caution to the wind! But, I am back in the saddle today.

Something is changing in me. Normally that would have been the end of my diet. I blew it so lets just have something else, and breakfast today would have consisted of the leftover cupcakes that somehow ended up at my house...thanks sis! And then lunch would have been McD's cuz I haven't had them in so long. You get the picture!

I guess even tho I had chocolate (Ahhh!!!) last night it is still a victory for me!

Drum Roll Please!!!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 14:35:00 +0000

Well, today has been 6 weeks since I started back on Prism. I was not as strict as I was the first time I was on it and didn't keep a food diary and count all my calories, even tho I knew the calorie counts.
I did this with the idea of living in mind. If life popped up, as it always does, I can then choose whether I wanted to partake or not, and ask myself if it was worth it or not. This is a good lesson to learn!
I ate cake and ice cream at my Mom's 80th birthday party because she would not understand if I didn't eat it. But I passed on the cake and ice cream at two other family birthdays. On hubby and I's weekend away, I ate whatever sounded good. But went back to eating completely healthy again on Monday. I learned alot, by my little experiments this time.
But having said all this...I will tell you I lost the same amount as I did the first time I went on Prism and was sooooooooo strict. Twenty pounds! I guess with my body you have to keep tricking it and never let it know what it is going to get from one day to the next. I usually will lose around 30 pounds on whatever diet or program that I am on...and then my body shuts off and says "no more, that's all you get!" and then I get disgusted eventually and rebel, gaining it all back and inviting some of it's friends and family to join too! Just like the family share plan! Eventually you realize what you have done to yourself and then you are disgusted with yourself as well as diets and just get good and depressed.
What a vicious cycle...I am hoping to spare myself from all the regret and self hate this time. So I am going about it a little differently. Stay tuned for more updates!

I am so looking forward to tomorrow!!!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Mon, 15 Oct 2007 15:16:00 +0000

That's right Baby! Phase one will be done, over, kaput, outta there...woo hoo!!! It has been a long six weeks! Need I say more?

3 long weeks!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Sun, 07 Oct 2007 20:15:00 +0000

I have been in this boot for three weeks and my foot is not healing! Poop! Looks like he may have to go in and pin it! Not only do I not want surgery but I also can't really take any time off work. I am the only one trained to do the church bulletin etc. Maybe if I can schedule surgery on a Wed. Then I would have Wed thru Sun. to be ready to return to work. Although I am not sure how I will get there as I won't be able to drive. How I wish were not so dumb!

Food wise I have been doing pretty good. I did take the weekend off when Hubby and I went to stay at a wonderful condo on the lake. It was great! Very relaxing! I would have liked to have been able to explore more but it was still nice to get away.

Hubby enjoyed the antique hydroplanes. They were very cool, but I had my eyes set on a scrapbook store I spotted when driving thru town.

We also went to the casino for awhile the night before and had the seafood buffett and donated a little to the cause, of course. Saturday Night we watched movies on the big flat screen tv and hubby bbq'd a couple of steaks. Yes it was very nice to get away.

This is looking out from our balcony in the back. Our condo was just like his one.

This is the lake seen from the other side of the deck!

I could have lived in this condo very easily! It had a full kitchen, bar, dining room, living room and two bedrooms. Washer & dryer too! And the great part for me is that it was all on one level. Woo hoo! No stairs like my tri-level!

I have a week and two days left on phase one of the Prism program. I have lost 18 pounds as of last week. I lost 20 pounds last time on the first phase so I am just about on target for my body. I am hoping to be able to lose better in the second phase by getting to exercise some. Right now I am out of commission.

Hubby just left to get animal food, so I think I will try to get some things done while he is not watching me so close! Ha Ha! have a good week all!

We are as one!

noreply@blogger.com (...jus me) — Fri, 21 Sep 2007 16:16:00 +0000

Yep, my friends, me and the boot are becoming one! Geez...I can't imagine being in this thing for another 5 1/2 to 7 1/2 weeks! I have bruises and sore spots from just wearing the silly aircast. Remind me to never ever do this again! This was really dumb!

Well, on another note...I had gained back a couple pounds after losing all that water, which I know is normal. It is just my bodies way of settling down into the routine. I have now lost them again and another pound! That makes it a total of 15 and I know that it has adjusted now and I will wait for my next weigh in. It will be very slow now, and I can't really exercise, so we'll just take it as it comes...or goes, so to speak!

Have a great day!