Yuck!

Woke up with a nasty cold this morning. Yuck! I hate colds. They usually don't last long tho as I usually have bronchitis by the second day! I should have known I was coming down with something as I have not been able to get warm for several days now.

But the good news is...I lost another two pounds! I am thrilled about that...woo-hoo!

Another one bites the dust!

Lost another pound, sure wish it would take some of it's friends with it! I feel better eating healthier but the weight sure is coming off slow this time. I still can't do much in the line of exercise. I also am not recording every calorie. I find that when I do that, my every waking thought concerns food...don't like that. So I am keeping a rough count and don't you know (really) when you are consuming too many calories, atleast when you are the one doing the cooking? I don't like dieting at all, so we'll see if I can do this healthy stuff and try to watch my portions and incorporate exercise if and when I can.

I have been kicking around the idea of going back on Prism (phase one) for a couple weeks every now and then. It is so restrictive but it will jump start my metabolism and clean out all the junk. We'll see. No sugars, no breads of any kind, no potatoes, hmmmm!

Keepin' On Keepin" On...

I have come to the realization that not weighing is not working for me. Because of my Pseudo Tumor Cerebri, I have to keep track of the fluid buildup and in order to do this I must verify my suspicians with the scale. I can usually tell when I am making too much fluid, but the scale definitely confirms it. Then I know to take my pills for a few days to get rid of it. I will lose between 7-10 pounds in a couple days. Then I am good to go again.

I have lost another pound so that is a good thing. Then I gained from the build-up of fluid in my brain. I have lost 8 pounds in two days, have one more to be back where I was. Gets kinda tricky to figure out how I am doing at times, depends on the day! I have stayed off the scale in between times tho!

Works for me!

Tonight is 10 days in a row that I have cooked dinner at home, and healthy too! Needless to say my husband is loving it. He feels very spoiled. I am actually enjoying it too, but don't tell hubby. It's nice to have a list to work from and to just get up, decide what sounds good and ta-da, dinner is planned. Then I know when to start it and all goes smoothly so it is ready for hubby when he gets home or shortly after. And because I am cooking he is cleaning the kitchen. Woohoo! Our evenings are free to do what we would like.

I am playing around with a couple pounds the last couple of weeks. They don't seem to want to go too far. I know I have been double checking the scales too much. I have been officially weighing once a week, but getting on the scale many times during the course of the week. I know this is not good. The scale does not tell the whole story. I know my body is changing. I can see the slight differences. Sure nobody else can probably see them yet but that is not unusual. I usually have to lose about 25-30 pounds before anybody really notices.

I have to be careful when people do start to notice. I don't know why but I have a tendency to relax a bit when that happens. It's almost like I am doing it for people and not for me. If they think I am starting to look better well...ok then! Although the 25-30 pounds does make me look better and does help on my health...it is not enough, so no slacking off. I have to keep at it. We are going for the long haul this time.

And now back to the present, I need to get off this computer and get to movin'! But in conclusion, I don't think I am going to weigh until the 20th of February. Once a month is enough!

Finally!

I think I have finally gotton about 3 weeks of meals figured out so now the big obstacle is actually doing the shopping. That is a big thing with my knee and actually all that is stopping me right now. I'm hoping I can talk DH into going a little later this afternoon. If we don't go shopping, we will have too rely on fast food again! Ugh!

I went back to church today after being home for 2 months because of my knee. It was still pretty painful sitting as my feet dangle from the pews. No, I don't quite touch the ground. It kinda sucks! Sure was good to see everyone tho. And just about all my friends are trying to eat healthy right now. This is a very good thing! They got me all enthused to really do this. Funny how the doctor can tell you all the time that you need to drop the weight and it's just like " blah blah blah "...(well, not really) but if your friends are doing it, you are all over it!

I have changed my strategy a bit again. That's ok because this is a journey to find what works for me. I really don't want to diet and I have said that all along. So I have lost 11.5 lbs. without dieting, right? Well, now my goal is to hit the 20 lb. mark. This is me being realistic. This is attainable. Just 10 lbs. Then I will work on the next 10 lbs. etc. So that being said...I have 8.5 lbs. to go on this 10 pounds. Or the magic scale amount of 242 lbs. Technically I had worked my way up to 276 pounds (with my extra fluid from PTC) before I started paying attention to what I was doing etc.

This week I will start counting all my water intake and taking my meds for PTC (Psuedo Tumor Cerebri) and taking my vitamins and watching my portions and fixing what I have planned for meals etc. No fast food! Except for the occaisional Subway.

This has been a bad week. We have had fast food most of the week, no food in the house syndrome! Gotta keep this from happening. I am sure the scale will show it on Tuesday. And then on Tuesday our Bible Study starts (with a potluck brunch, of course!) lol can't win!

I haven't run away...really!

I am still here and I am more committed than ever to lose the weight. I had my surgery a week ago Tuesday and have been trying to recover. There was sooo much inflammation that my knee and thigh and lower back are in pain alot. My lower back hurts from the way that I have had to walk for the last 6 months to protect my knee.

The doctor said that the joint is shot like he thought and there was not any tear in the meniscus like they thought there might be. He told me that if I lose the weight I may not even need to have it replaced. So that is it folks! He said it. He also told me that just 11 pounds reduces my need for surgery by 25%. Goal one...11 lbs. (Done) Woohoo!

I go back on the 2nd of February. I want to lose 15 pounds in that month. I would be happy with another 11 but I would really like to show him that I am serious and lose 15. It is doable, right?

I am going to join the new pool/health place in town. I really don't need another expense right now but... I need to do the water thing to strengthen my knee and back muscles, then I can work on my treadmill and bike. This is big for me...wish me luck!

Merry Christmas!

Hope you all had a great Christmas with family and friends! Mine was very relaxing. Yeah! Didn't mean I didn't eat things I shouldn't, but you know I am not into deprivation! I am living not dieting!

My surgery to clean out my knee is next Tuesday. I weigh in that morning, if I remember before I have to be there. Please pray for my surgery to help so that I can be more active. I really am looking forward to being able to exercise and have a lot less pain. I have a lot of people praying for me. I think I am really ready to do this.

I have lost 10 pounds now and that is a good start so now my next goal is another 20 pounds. Then I am hoping to maintain it for a week or two and start being careful again til I lose another 20, and so on and so on! I don't want to be crazy about this, just 20 pound segments, beings I usually come to a screeching halt at 30 pounds. Maybe I can trick my body and not make it think that it is starving this way!

Hope you all have a fun and safe New Year!