Chocolate

Ok...I have fallen to a new low! I tried really hard to not eat Halloween candy so I didn't buy any chocolate. Sounds like a good idea but as the night went on I wanted chocolate so bad I bribed a trick or treater with three pieces of our candy for just one piece of chocolate candy from his bag. Best Baby Ruth I ever had!

Here we go!

Well, Day One is upon me! Had a 275 calorie protein shake for breakfast. Just starting to realize that I am hungry.

Meanwhile got my hair cut and did my Costco grocery shopping. Yeah I am glad that is done! Now I am gonna be busy making meat sauce and bagging it for future use and cooking some whole chickens for different recipes as well. That should give us a good start on the month.

Well I should go fix me a salad or something else for lunch and get busy. See ya!

Last day for church cookies

Yep my church can be a contributor to my delinquency on eating healthy...they have cookies! And good ones too! And today they had donuts too!

I indulged today like an alcoholic does the day before he goes into forced rehab! Well, not that bad! Not sure if I really wanted the cookies or if I wanted them because I knew I couldn't have them after today. This is why I don't like to DIET! This is also why I WON'T DIET! If I really have to have a cookie, I will have one and simply count the calories.

And the real reason I had a cookie today...because it seemed like a freebie! I told myself that I am not being good until tomorrow. I think I need to get out of that mind set. I will work on that one!

Ok so I have been thinking...

I know it is a scary thing for me, but here goes!

I need a new beginning so I will feel all past descretians have been forgotten and forgiven. I realize that I only get that with the Lord, but why can't it apply to my eating and quest for health as well? I think it can.

I know that the way I have been eating is sinful on so many levels so it is time to do something about it again.

Step One... Admit that I need an intervention!

I lost 45 pounds, took a vacation and gained back 7-10 pounds. I stayed there all summer. Due to an illness and the resulting prednisone use my pseudo tumor cerebri flared up again and I have another 10-15 pounds of fluid on top of the 7-10 I gained back. I know I need a total commitment now.

Step Two... Make a plan.

I have done the best when I am tracking my calories and eating all my fruits and veggies. The Jorge Cruz "Belly Fat Cure" was very interesting to me. I did learn alot from it, but I didn't lose as well on it. I will incorporate what I learned to my plan tho and will be watching my "hidden sugar" as well as caloric count. I will be choosing whole foods as much as I can without driving myself crazy. I know my daily caloric intake so I am good to go there.

• Ask God (daily) to help me to make wise decisions concerning the food I put into my body and to help me to start taking better care of this body he gave me

• keep a food diary
• track my calories
• drink atleast 64 oz. water daily
• absolutely no pop!!!
• take vitamins & ptc meds daily
  
• complex carbs/balanced with protein
• weigh once a week and take measurements once a month
  
• cook or prepare foods at home

1. collect low cal healthy recipes
2. try new recipes
3. put together recipes for cook once and freeze for month
   

• exercise in pool atleast twice a week

1. write letter and get papers together for membership at fitness center
2. plan atleast two days pool time
3. get a better suit to wear
   

• be more active on days I don't swim

Step Three...Develop a support team.people to call when feeling weak or discouraged/depressed

• people who I can email for encouragement
• people who I can exercise with
  
• people who will come over when I need a kick in the butt
• people who encourage me by leaving a comment on my blog
• people who will pray for me
  

Well, that is good enough for a start! I will update my blog on Monday morning with my starting weight. Hope you all have a great weekend!

Still aive...I think!

Yep, if anybody out there still cares...I am still around!

This must be one of "those seasons" for all the weightloss blogs and my old pals that battle this demon! What I mean is, most all of my favorite bloggers and friends have not posted in as long or longer than I have. I have not given up! And I hope they have not either!

It seems like none of us are actively fighting the weightloss battle at the present time. This is not necessarily a bad thing. Like me, I quit fighting about May sometime. I put on 7 pounds and have stayed there all summer. Now that it is starting on the hibernation time I know I need to start thinking about getting back at it.

Unfortunately thinking is about all I am doing at this point. My knees and hip are hurting right now and any kind of movement is not a fun option. I am having trouble sleeping with this as well. And as far as eating goes, I am just trying to watch the portions right now as we have my granddaughter and her fiance living with us for awhile and our diet has been modified to accommodate two other people. We don't always share our meals but even still there are fattening foods being cooked and eaten and I have no willpower. If everybody is snacking, then why can't I?

I will try to get back at it soon. I need to get my pseudo tumor cerebri under control tho first as I am carrying about 10-15 pounds of extra fluid ever since I had to take prednisone for 3 days.

I miss hearing from everyone and seeing how you are all doing. It gets me motivated. Maybe we can help each other? Take care all!