Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Drum Roll Please!!!

Well, today has been 6 weeks since I started back on Prism. I was not as strict as I was the first time I was on it and didn't keep a food diary and count all my calories, even tho I knew the calorie counts.
I did this with the idea of living in mind. If life popped up, as it always does, I can then choose whether I wanted to partake or not, and ask myself if it was worth it or not. This is a good lesson to learn!
I ate cake and ice cream at my Mom's 80th birthday party because she would not understand if I didn't eat it. But I passed on the cake and ice cream at two other family birthdays. On hubby and I's weekend away, I ate whatever sounded good. But went back to eating completely healthy again on Monday. I learned alot, by my little experiments this time.
But having said all this...I will tell you I lost the same amount as I did the first time I went on Prism and was sooooooooo strict. Twenty pounds! I guess with my body you have to keep tricking it and never let it know what it is going to get from one day to the next. I usually will lose around 30 pounds on whatever diet or program that I am on...and then my body shuts off and says "no more, that's all you get!" and then I get disgusted eventually and rebel, gaining it all back and inviting some of it's friends and family to join too! Just like the family share plan! Eventually you realize what you have done to yourself and then you are disgusted with yourself as well as diets and just get good and depressed.
What a vicious cycle...I am hoping to spare myself from all the regret and self hate this time. So I am going about it a little differently. Stay tuned for more updates!


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