Works for me!

Tonight is 10 days in a row that I have cooked dinner at home, and healthy too! Needless to say my husband is loving it. He feels very spoiled. I am actually enjoying it too, but don't tell hubby. It's nice to have a list to work from and to just get up, decide what sounds good and ta-da, dinner is planned. Then I know when to start it and all goes smoothly so it is ready for hubby when he gets home or shortly after. And because I am cooking he is cleaning the kitchen. Woohoo! Our evenings are free to do what we would like.

I am playing around with a couple pounds the last couple of weeks. They don't seem to want to go too far. I know I have been double checking the scales too much. I have been officially weighing once a week, but getting on the scale many times during the course of the week. I know this is not good. The scale does not tell the whole story. I know my body is changing. I can see the slight differences. Sure nobody else can probably see them yet but that is not unusual. I usually have to lose about 25-30 pounds before anybody really notices.

I have to be careful when people do start to notice. I don't know why but I have a tendency to relax a bit when that happens. It's almost like I am doing it for people and not for me. If they think I am starting to look better well...ok then! Although the 25-30 pounds does make me look better and does help on my health...it is not enough, so no slacking off. I have to keep at it. We are going for the long haul this time.

And now back to the present, I need to get off this computer and get to movin'! But in conclusion, I don't think I am going to weigh until the 20th of February. Once a month is enough!

Finally!

I think I have finally gotton about 3 weeks of meals figured out so now the big obstacle is actually doing the shopping. That is a big thing with my knee and actually all that is stopping me right now. I'm hoping I can talk DH into going a little later this afternoon. If we don't go shopping, we will have too rely on fast food again! Ugh!

I went back to church today after being home for 2 months because of my knee. It was still pretty painful sitting as my feet dangle from the pews. No, I don't quite touch the ground. It kinda sucks! Sure was good to see everyone tho. And just about all my friends are trying to eat healthy right now. This is a very good thing! They got me all enthused to really do this. Funny how the doctor can tell you all the time that you need to drop the weight and it's just like " blah blah blah "...(well, not really) but if your friends are doing it, you are all over it!

I have changed my strategy a bit again. That's ok because this is a journey to find what works for me. I really don't want to diet and I have said that all along. So I have lost 11.5 lbs. without dieting, right? Well, now my goal is to hit the 20 lb. mark. This is me being realistic. This is attainable. Just 10 lbs. Then I will work on the next 10 lbs. etc. So that being said...I have 8.5 lbs. to go on this 10 pounds. Or the magic scale amount of 242 lbs. Technically I had worked my way up to 276 pounds (with my extra fluid from PTC) before I started paying attention to what I was doing etc.

This week I will start counting all my water intake and taking my meds for PTC (Psuedo Tumor Cerebri) and taking my vitamins and watching my portions and fixing what I have planned for meals etc. No fast food! Except for the occaisional Subway.

This has been a bad week. We have had fast food most of the week, no food in the house syndrome! Gotta keep this from happening. I am sure the scale will show it on Tuesday. And then on Tuesday our Bible Study starts (with a potluck brunch, of course!) lol can't win!

I haven't run away...really!

I am still here and I am more committed than ever to lose the weight. I had my surgery a week ago Tuesday and have been trying to recover. There was sooo much inflammation that my knee and thigh and lower back are in pain alot. My lower back hurts from the way that I have had to walk for the last 6 months to protect my knee.

The doctor said that the joint is shot like he thought and there was not any tear in the meniscus like they thought there might be. He told me that if I lose the weight I may not even need to have it replaced. So that is it folks! He said it. He also told me that just 11 pounds reduces my need for surgery by 25%. Goal one...11 lbs. (Done) Woohoo!

I go back on the 2nd of February. I want to lose 15 pounds in that month. I would be happy with another 11 but I would really like to show him that I am serious and lose 15. It is doable, right?

I am going to join the new pool/health place in town. I really don't need another expense right now but... I need to do the water thing to strengthen my knee and back muscles, then I can work on my treadmill and bike. This is big for me...wish me luck!