With dread & trepidation...

Well, I wasn't all too sure that I wanted to weigh in today... this week has been a struggle all the way around. I figured that I could not just give up because of a bad week or I would totally give up and end up adding more weight onto my already bloated, way too soft body! I don't like feeling bad about myself (I am way too praticed at it) and so I pulled myself up and decided good or bad I was still going to weigh in and still continue the fight. Much to my suprise, I had still lost one and a half pounds. True, I should have lost more this week, just because it is only my second week, but I'll take it! It looks far better to just lose 1 1/2 than to gaining the 2-3 I would have next week if I had given up! So, taking everything into account, I am signing last week off as a good week under the circumstances! Have a good week all!

Oh, I almost forgot...I had two goals for this last week, neither of which did I accomplish so I am adding them to this week AGAIN!

drink more water, especially at work.
plan my meals...maybe I should drop this one as I can't do any shopping until Friday...geesh!

Food tracker?

Totally walked away from it this week...just way too busy! Poor excuse I know! Second week and I am making excuses. I know I need to be accountable, but honestly this week, I just couldn't find room for ONE MORE THING that I had to do. Curious what Monday morning weigh in is going to show!
I am sitting here in my jammies just breathing...first time the pressure has been off all week! And yet, I can't grace myself with total abandon even for 15 minutes, because I am still thinking of everything I have to do today (at home). Go to the bank...call the vet...call my Mom...do some laundry...find something to eat...and my mind keeps flashing back to work to make sure I didn't forget anything for Sunday service. Ok, the pressure is winning...gotta go!

I wasn't perfect....but

I still lost 5.5 lbs. Guess that is the beauty of weight watcher's. You don't have to feel deprived and be perfect. I did find a few things I would like to do better at tho!

1. Drink more water when I am at work. For some reason I just forget about it. I do pretty good at home, provided I have nice cold water in the frig. Right now I am too lazy to put my water bottles in the frig. Yes, I am a water snob!
   
2. I need to plan my meals better and figure out what I am going to have for dinner and shop for it before I am starving and cranky and wanting anything.
3. I do need to exercise but that is still out for now due to my knee!

Good start anyway...I will get better as I go along, but I do want to work on 1 & 2 this week!

I think...I think...I think...

I think I am doing ok! Yesterday I wasn't feeling too good so didn't eat as much as I should have. Pretty low on points, but I did eat something on and off during the day. I am feeling ok so far today but I have not eaten yet either.

I am going out for dinner and a movie with my girlfriends to celebrate our one friend turning 50! Kind of low key by some standards but I know we will have a great time. Just getting out together and away from all our responsibilities for the night will be fun. And there will be no shortage of laughter. We are going to PF Changs for dinner. Not your normal deep fried greasy chinese food. This is more clean and fresh, I understand. Hopefully my two days will balance out.

I did get a chance to check in on some of my favorite blogs this week. Some of you have been and are doing great! There are quite a few that are not being so good and have been silent and away from their blogs, just like I was. It is really hard to get on here and say I have not been doing well in fact I have not been doing at all! There is a lot of encouragement to be had from all our friends on this journey, so please don't run away and hide, ( like I did) just keep reading and post and talk about what you are feeling. I'll bet there are many of us that are or have gone thru the same thing because this is a journey! There are bumps in the road and there are deep ruts you never think you are going to get out of. There are hills to climb and then there is the times you are on the top of the hill and sailing down the other side just as fast as can be, when it seems like you don't have to do anything but hold on and feel the wind in your hair! It is all part of the journey.

Have a great weekend!

You'd think I would remember!

But then again...I have to remember that I am talking about ME! Being eager to start off on the right foot, and drink all my water, have lots of fruits and veggies and even more fiber, I think I need to make sure that I add a little more protein to slow things down a bit! And any of you that have been with me for awhile may realize that sometimes my brain is not engaged before I do things. So on top of running to the bathroom already, I stopped into Wendy's and grabbed a small chili while I was running errands during lunch. Guess where I will be spending my evening?

Gettin' Down to Business!

Hey, I did it! I actually made it all day and stayed under my points for the day! I have one point left but I am nice and full! I turned down cupcakes and pop both today...woohoo! And they really didn't bother me. That's how I know when I am truly ready! I am not really tempted by all the goodies around. What an awesome feeling, now if I could just bottle that feeling for later when I am bored and tired of being good!

Tomorrow's the day!

Yes, once again, I will get up shower, brush my teeth, gel my hair and face the scale!

Yep, tomorrow is it, weight and measurements! What a way to start the week! Who came up with starting a diet or healthy eating program (beings I hate the word D-I-E-T ) on a Monday? For Heaven's sake, aren't Monday's hard enough already? But I will start with the millions of Americans who once again start over on a Monday. Shouldn't that alone make me wait til Tuesday? I am pretty onery and love doing my own thing! I would have started today but we had a Missions Conference at church today with snacks from all over the world! I don't think so! Tomorrow will have to do!

I really am looking forward to it. I haven't done all my shopping yet but I probably can get by until I can. I am getting much better at my water drinking, so I think I am set.